I wanna be a kid again

Sometimes i wish i could be a little kid again. Because everything seems to be getting harder. School isn't so easy and more. You actually have to listen you aren't adding 2+2. The girls aren't running away from boys saying ew they have cooties. They are getting with them. The new form of cooties is STD's. The only hurt we ever got was a scraped up knee or a paper cut- broken hearts are harder to bandage up. After a while all the lies and the hurt builds up and you can't kiss it and make it better. When you were sad you cried and pouted. Now you put a fake smile on your face and try not to fall apart even though you are broken on the inside.You used to say I like you and now you are looking at the boy you like saying i love you. He doesn't say i like you too he says i love you too. Then it doesn't work and your teenage love affair comes to an end. and you see him walking down the hallway with some other girl and all you can do was imagine if it was still you. Your idea of fun was  playing soccer and baseball and playing tag at recess. Now its going to parties and drinking and having sex and drugs. The most trouble you ever got in was a time out now you are getting expelled from schools and losing friends and getting grounded and sitting in detention. Driving used to be something mommy and daddy did all the time and something you could do when you were a big girl. but now you're the one in the drivers seat. When you were sad your parents were there to give you a hug now you're sitting alone crying yourself to sleep because there is no one there to hug you. You can thank drama, relationships, and hormones for that. People come and go now and your friends are having problems and the world is falling apart. I want to be 5 years old again because i am hurting too much right now and i want to be innocent again and see through 5 year old's eyes. Just for a day. To remember what its like to be happy.... truly happy.