Tuesday, March 22, 2011

rewind: redo what you messed up. what you regret. replay that day when you felt so in love, so happy- that smile that could not be wiped away from your face. rewind and see that person you've been missing for so long and the last thing they said to you. replay that night. rewrite that text. say i love you and mean it instead of just mouthing the words

pause: stop in the moment. look in their eyes. feel the butterflies in your stomach. stop to think about what you are doing. don't fuck this up kid. don't fuck this up. stay in this moment forever because it is so perfect, so real.

play: just live life in the moment. go at your own pace. there's no need to speed up or go back, just go with the flow and don't stop for anyone.

stop: process. don't move. don't say anything. mental health day needed. shut down, go to sleep, hibernate, die for a day. relax and take a moment to think because you don't wanna mess this up again. 

fast forward: get the hell out of here. run. don't turn back. look and see where you will be and think ahead. don't you dare stop running until you fade into the sunset.

i never loved you i loved the man i thought you were. you turned out to be wrong about everything i ever thought about you. you turned out to be a liar. you turned out to be a cheat. you turned out to be what i wished you were but nothing that i needed. i needed someone to keep me safe and you put me in the light where i could get hurt.

what defines us is how well we rise after falling. no one cares how many times we try and stand up, its when you actually do that counts. people will constantly try and knock you down but when you get back up on your feet again it proves that you can do anything

a typical day in the day of the life of me basically...

someone bring me sushi or chinese or something!! that sounds so good.... rice. soy sauce. potstickers. hot and sour soup. teriyaki steak. yummm. can you tell im hungry??


Fourty year old “Two and a Half Men” star, Charlie Sheen, has once again stolen the limelight, taking a moment to educate us about his use of illegal substances. When speaking to Andrea Canning on 20/20, Sheen said, “I am on a drug. It’s called Charlie Sheen.’ It is not available because if you try it once, you will die. Your face will melt off and your children will weep over your exploded body.” This serves as a warning to all Charlie Sheen lovers, followers, and wannabes. The drug is lethal and may be the cause of past actions that left society questioning his morality and sanity.  In 1990, Sheen accidentally shot his finacee, Kelly Preston, in the arm. He claims it was an accident, but the relationship quickly ended. He was also accused of spending tens of thousands of dollars on prostitutes and threatening his various adult film star girlfriends, wifes, and the current woman in his life,third wife, Brooke Mueller. Perhaps the new fad he created of using “Charlie Sheen” led to his current breakdown. This drug should be reported if seen because it may cause you to believe that you have Tiger blood and Adonis DNA, that they are dealing with “fools and trolls”, that they have the magic to do what they would like in the world and that you are high preists- vatican assassin warlocks. Users of the drug are dangerous, believing they have a different constitution where they do not have to treat people as people and they can rant for hours about winning and their fire-breathing fists. Sheen, along with other users of the drug, have been said to deny that they have a disease, saying, “I have a disease? No. I cured it with my brain.” They are in total denial about their current state and need to be looked after. They also believe in a term called “bi-winning” which means winning some here and some there. Wide eyed stares and crazy gestures are quiet common, so do not be alarmed. Often, they walk up to random desks and say, “Here is your cold coffee, buh-bye.” Take the coffee and do not argue. These users could snap at any moment and begin ranting or accidently shoot you like one of their adult film stars. Beware and take precautions to avoid an accidental encounter!

i wonder if it's possible to have a love affair that lasts forever.